Dead or Alive (oh wow)

I grow up listening to the 80's band Dead or Alive and obviously my song was "You Spin Me Right Round" haha... Well as I got really older I stop listening to them cuz I got more into my rap music and 80's wasnt hip anymore.

Today, on my way home their song came on the radio so blasted it so loud in the car I got into it again (shocking I still know the words haha).


I went on youtube to look for their music video and I found the real video that was made in 1986 but... I saw that the band remade the song & video in 2003 its very shocking... cuz the lead singer Pete Burns had a sex change and he looks sooo horrible...


1986 he looked pretty back then why the ugly change?!!!!!
I love his hair I think I found my new hair style for 2010!!







2003 remake after the sex change its a tight video something that maybe I will direct in the future but 1000 times better and maybe a prettier tranny (hes scary lookin). I like this verison better cuz its more techno and I LOVE TECHNO!!!
lis





All day I tried calling some cd stores to find any album that has the newer verison and the old one but no luck =( so I looked on ebay still nothing not even on limewire or itunes. If any one can get it for me on a cd Ill very much appreciate it.

Who are they? That is the question...

Who made up all the rules?


Why do we follow them like fools?


Believe them to be true...


No care to think them threw...


I'm sorry...


So sorry...


I'm sorry it's like this...


I'm sorry...


So sorry...


I'm sorry we do this...






And it's ironic too cuz what we tend to do is act on what they say
and then it is that way...

I'm sorry...


So sorry...


I'm sorry it's like this...


I'm sorry...


So sorry...


I'm sorry we do this...


Who are they?


Where are they?


How can they possibly
Know all this?


Who are they?


Where are they?

How can they possibly
Know all this?





Do you see what I see?


Why do we live like this?


Is it because it's true
That ignorance is bliss?


I'm sorry...


So sorry...


I'm sorry it's like this...


Do you see what I see?


Why do we live like this?


Is it because it's true
That ignorance is bliss?

Who are they?


Where are they?


How can they
Know all this?


I'm sorry...


So sorry...
I'm sorry we do this ....

I... I..LL..O...VE... YOU!!! <3

Dont you just hate it when your words dont come out the way you want them to? It sucks huh?



Damn... If only I had tha guts to tell you.... or show you....

its weird how one person can make you so crazy...

Theres times when I jump in the middle of the night cuz I think you're watching me...
ehh.. but thats just me Im just weird like that...
for months Ive tried to be your picture perfect girl but til this day you're still living in
your own fantasy world...

Im gonna talk bout one night... me and my friends were at a really wild party
6 of us went most of them got really drunk but whole night I wasnt really in to it
like normal I had someone in my mind that kept me detracted from everything
like I wouldnt dance,drink,smoke, or talk I just sat there alone...

I dont know if that was just me starting to really grow up or something else.
This just happened this friday
for me not to drink or smoke theres something wrong with me!! This person has been detracting me on alot of things... That night was so bad that I left early but I didnt go home I stayed out all night for 12 hours at a park thinking but what will that do... all it did was get me grounded.



Love does the weirdest shit to you and can make you do or say stupid shit
when I walk away I always ask myself "damn why the fuck did I just say that?"

I hate that you make me stubble and get me hella crazy....

I may not be living a happy life rite now but least you're my reason to smile...
and I'd rather die than stay away from you...


Right now I feel like Im walking on air Im higher than heaven its outta this earth...
I dont wanna come down thoe.

If this world does come to an end...
I will use my last breath by telling you

I... I..LL..O...VE... YOU!!!

I ARE U FUCKIN SERIOUS!!!!!!

HAHAHAAHAHHA K normaly Im not that big of a bitch to talk shit bout people BUT THIS SHIT IS PRETTY GREAT!!!!

So I know this one guy whos will be nameless is so sprung off this one brod for like hella long but shes hella far... well anyways! A couple months ago I tried to go on her myspace but it was set private I saw her profile picture and from that she kinda looked pretty... well you really couldnt tell cuz her pic had effect so all that time I kept getting a lil worried cuz I thought she was prettier than me but last night changed it all!!!!!!!

I stayed up all night on myspace to see if I can track down a really good picture of her yea I saw one of her close up but you couldnt see her face cuz she was at the side than finally I found one!!!!

OMG my jaw hit the floor SHES UGLY AS FUCK!!! Im not just saying that to sound like a hater cuz thats not me Ill admit if she was pretty but she aint!!!

I laught so hard that I cried and my head was starting to hurt I saved that pic I sent it to falisaty. Me & silvia couldnt get over it, it was to damn funny cuz this guy made her sound like she was janet jackson or somthing HHAHA more like freddie jackson.

All this time I kept talking down on myself when this bitch is hella ugly
she looks like a way uglier verison of the red head lindsay lohan.

Damn no wonder Im not the chosen one cuz he has a bad ass ugly taste
all ugly bitches thats to bad Im the pretty one...
Out of all those girl
Girl #1. looks like a red headed hill billie
Girl #2. talks & looks like a man
Girl #3. fat looks white trash and
missing a few inches

I guess ugly is the new beautiful...

I dont give a fuck if Im down talking all these ass looking brods
cuz now I know what I have that these ugly bitch dont...
1.I get my hair done
2.I get my neils done
3. I have the best fashion style
4. I get my makeup done by M.A.C
5, I might sound like a bitch now
and other times but really Im a sweetheart
no lie.
6. I have the most gorgeous green eyez
for being mexican
7. I dont want an anorexic body cuz I love my
booty and my C cup boobs but I do watch what I eat and
I workout daily I worry bout health.
8.Perfect teeth!!!
9. I get my eyebrows done every 2 weeks
10.tanning skin is getting there
11. Im acne free cuz I use creams
12. love to have fun im never boring
13. 5'5 perfect size
14.100% honest

So I know damn well Im better looking than all these brods!!!
I have alot guys right now that want to go out with me but
I turn them down cuz of a special someone in my life...

Im 10000% unique no one can do it like me!!!!!

Why?

I went to a shrink to talk about him... he was still stuck in my brain like a lustfull tumor. I was mad at him for what he did to me but god damn it, I cant stop myself from loving him. Hes there in the corner of my eye. Where theres no one in the room I can see him staring at me, but all thats there is a red stain from a junky who was too much in a hurry to use a rubber tube. After speaking to the shrink she wanted his number. I looked at her and I gave her some advice of my own. As I walked out hes was stuck in my head. Why, Why was I there? Why did I think he could love some one like me? The eyes of innocense placed on the body of temptation. Deep in thought I saw another figure of him on the passing side of the side walk. I looked to hopefully see a news stand or a poster of an underground band who would only be broken up by an asian girl named yoko (kind of a grimey place for a beatles joke). But i didnt see a poster, or a news stand. I saw him. I just said his name and he looked at me and all he had to say was hi. I fell in love with him again. I help back the anger and the tears. He had no idea what ive been threw or nore would he care. I saw a girl at the top of the sidewalk calling his name and he stood there and looked at her with such grace. I could hold both back anymore i just walked away. Thats all I could do. Hes stuck there, here in my mind.

To say my goodbyes..

Im very much on my last leg...

I dont have much anymore take the rest cuz I DONT NEED IT!!!

Why I ask? What did I do to deserve such pain?

Beat me to death! Beat me til I have no air...

Let me drown, Im making things better for u

I dont matter to you

Why act like you care?

I hate goodbyes...

Honey, just shoot me!!!!

Hate me!!! I beg of you ...

Cut your name across my heart...

My skin rips slowly

I want to see my blood

I smell burt razer blade with my blood on the corner

IM DEAD TO YOU!!!

tell them that I am dead...

I gave my heart & soul...

so when you wake up

one morning and Im not there or alive

JUST REMEMBER

i loved u things will never be the same....

Dropping out

So it seems that Im not graduating all my fuckin hard work for nothing I wasted my time doing summer school & night school. By next term I probably wont come back. None of my family members ever finished high school I thought I was gonna beat that and be the first. I already talked to my parents about it cause I got a letter today saying Im near failing I can make it up but it still wont give me credits that I need.

I had great 4 years at Sierra and I wish I couldve made it to graduation but now theres no point in me staying. =:(...