A couple months ago I wrote a blog for my cousin Trinidad aka Boo because hes going threw a depression stage and 24/7 I worry so much about him hes like #1 in my life.
Threw out the years when we were little we were close but than we drifted apart going in to the teen years. In February of this year my cousin Gina had a quince and he was in it, its been years since we saw each other later that night at the hall I notice how sad he looked so I sat with him and asked whats wrong he told about a girl that fucked him up and how he hates his life as we talked Im like oh my gosh Im listening to a guy version of myself we were the same exactly... we hella connected. Since than we got really close so close that there was nothing I didnt know about him and nothing he didnt know about me we called & texted each other everyday we become best friends my favorite cousin we had alot of trust in each other. There was times he would call me in the middle of the night crying because of this girl Ruby who treats him like shit (and I dont not like it what so ever) I hate hearing him upset so much that I start crying with him than he will start talking about death that his life is not worth living for and that will just break my heart because just the thought of something bad happening to him kills me. I did everything to try and help him it worked some what I got him to believe in himself and to take some of my advice. What hurt me the most was how bad he was fucking up in school because of that girl see, he was a G.A.T.E student with straight A's now there down to F's I would be on him about doing his homework & studying I did whatever I could...
So just recently him & my other cousins finally came down to Manteca to celebrate a weekend with me for my graduation I was so happy to see him again. The day was great but then later that night something happened that shouldnt have. Today it still bothers me and what Im about to say what happened next kills me but I have to get it off my chest cause Im at the point of losing it.
Since that weekend I waited 2 weeks straight for his call or something threw out those 2 weeks we havent talked and I got worried cause it was not like him so I tried contacting him but he was avoiding me so I had Falisaty & Rachel try and it was same. Im thinking "whats going on here?" I kept thinking that he was upset with me cause of what happened but it wasnt I was talking to my other cousin Marco (his brother) on facebook he told that hes been with his "ladyfriend" Im thinking oh hell no it better not be that broad Ruby when I asked him about it he didnt wanna tell me so I knew it after that I went on that bitches myspace and swore at her up & down left & right my reason for that was he told me so much about her that shes a fake & a user I didnt want that bitch with my cousin. Im really overprotective of him. He found out that night so he was blowing up my phone I ignored the calls than finally I answered we yelled at eachother he told me he wasnt gonna talk to me anymore I said he was stupid for going back with her ugh it was bad.
Ruby is his first girlfriend she dump him and ever since hes been so sprung on her shes such a bitch to him but she nice when she wants something from him than tells him fuck off after she gets it half of our family hates her cause what she does to him even his mom (my aunt) hates her.
The family tried telling him about her but hes in denial and I know girls like her so I know its not gonna be good in the end.
Sigh, After a while me & him made up than we fought again Im more hurt because we dont have relationship anymore he chose her over me after Ive always been there for him I told him "blood is thicker than water" but he doesnt give shit.
It makes me sad because I love him so much
and I always put him first before anybody
I would give my life for him or give
him a kidney and this
is what he does to me our argument was so
bad that I said he wasnt my cousin anymore
I cried myself to sleep that night.
We're still not talking today theres days I still cry about it even if I apologized we'll still fight because me & Ruby hate eachother now and as long as hes with her it wont stop. I promised her if she hurts him anymore its not gonna be pretty cause shes gonna deal with me!
Well this is me & him at the our cousin's quince, hes younger than me even thoe it dont look like it this is my favorite picture and its been my screen saver on my phone ever since. I miss him, he was the only family member I was really close to I lost my best friend *kinda getting emotional* I would do any thing to have my booboo back we been threw so much together and the memories break me down. I miss the phone calls and the stupid texting during class his weird ass jokes and how he use to cheer me up. He was my reason to change I stoped all the bad and immature shit I use to do because he looked up to me. I dont want things like this I want back to normal I WANT MY COUSIN BACK!!!! No matter what hes always gonna be my favorite and no matter how old he gets hes always gonna be my baby cousin. I love him like hes my son sigh...
We were like Ginger & Bridget.
Our promised was if ones dies we die together
